Soul Remembrance ~ a deeper Remembrance of why I AM here

I first visited Mount Shasta, California in 2015. I received an Attunement into the Lemurian energy and within 6 months or so received guidance to visit this Sacred Mountain I had not been aware of ~ in this lifetime! A mountain where a Galactic Community resides; Ascended Beings, Lemurians and other Light Beings calling it their Home.

Fast forward to the Call for my second visit in late 2025. Although not Realised at the time, a seed had been sown in 2015 and I had gone back out into the world to nourish and cultivate that seed. What I came to Realise over the next 10 years was an Opportunity to revisit residual aspects of my shadow self playing out keeping me stuck in a life I had outgrown; not fully believing in my self, lack still playing out, an ongoing need to be "solo" and a general difficulty and suffering through living within and amongst the world around me.

I patiently waited for my next Call. I received some inheritance money around 2023 and thought it may come then to enable the trip. The call didn't come. I have come to Realise there was still inner work to do, to raise my frequency sufficiently to meet the 2025 timeline. In the Summer of 2025, through a job in a local college that increasingly spoke to a contracted self, where I couldn't be my Self, without reprimand, I made a resolute decision to focus fully on my Soul Purpose. Looking back, and I knew it at some level, I had been keeping one foot in "a wider system" I had outgrown, not yet ready to jump . I had grown out of "mainstream" years ago; each time I took on a temp or contract job it would undoubtedly offer me lessons; often lessons I already knew where there was very little growth, likewise igniting my fire to enable change.

Late July 2025 was a turning point. I had just published my second book "Realise your Diamond Self ~ A Guided Prompt Journal" and I headed off; leaving Glastonbury in my car with a tent and a few possessions; kind friends offered a tent and storage. My Guides told me that I would be planning my trip no more than 4 days at a time; that I should start with a familiar location offering me an "Anchor" and allowing my trip to unfold. It was a great, sometimes challenging trip, mainly through the not knowing. I journeyed through the Black Mountains in Wales heading westward through Wales into near Lampeter and then finishing up in Aberystwyth. I knew that I was building my resilience and resourcefulness. I guess it was OK, at some level, as I was on homeland being a Brit. I have come to realise during this trip to the USA, my camping trip to Wales, had been preparing me for my "bigger trip" to the USA. By the end of Summer 2025, I was ready for a bed and restarted cat and dog sitting. I headed up to the Forest of Dean and looked after two lovely cats in a chocolate box cottage and beautiful weather. During this time I completed the foundation of the on-line programme experience of The Diamond Teachings "Living your Diamond Essence".

I had a one-week gap between pet sits and asked a friend for whom I had sitted before, if her place in Bristol would be available to stay at. I had looked after her beautiful collie Becky who had now passed and they were back in Ireland for the Summer. I was grateful to receive a yes. My friend, Eileen a seasoned meditator, has no doubt cultivated peace in her home. I feel her peaceful home helped me to hear the Wisdom of my Heart. Within a few minutes of sitting down to meditate, I quickly received my Second Call to Mount Shasta. I was elated. YES! my return to Shasta felt real. A bit of background regarding Mount Shasta and its "Call" to visit. This undoubtedly applies to most sacred places, and life in general. Although, I feel the Call of Mount Shasta is special. It is said to represent the Root Chakra energy of the Earth/Human experience; which definitely resonated at this point of my Life Journey; Security, survival, grounding into the physical world. I take a moment now to link back to my original Call to visit Mount Shasta; my emerging connection to the Lemurians, an Ancient Peace-Loving Civilisation and the fact that some Lemurians to this day reside within Mount Shasta. This inner City of Light is called TELOS, which means Purpose.

My plans to visit Mount Shasta came through relatively slowly and I didn't push it, allowing the unfolding. More pet sits, people and experiences were needed before coming back. I had a feeling I would need to sell my car for the trip. My Higher Guidance said there would be a new car, more Aligned, on my return. I knew I would be fine, as I have managed without a car for a year or so before. In fact, it felt very liberating to relinquish responsibility of a car. Furthermore, my account was brimming once again. Not excessively, likewise sufficiently to get me to Shasta and back, and a reserve for my return. Having lived more frugally over the last 20 years, although no longer my preference, it has taught me so much. In my London corporate days to around the year 2005, I earned up to £55,000 per year, but it came at a price; I was selling my soul, quite literally. I take responsibility for my choices; I know I chose adverse experiences to teach me important lessons about self-care and healthy boundaries.

By mid-December 2025 I was ready to book my flights; for some reason not before. As I sat down to book my flights I was given clear dates; I booked the flight on the 11 December, I would flight out on 11 January, staying for 10 weeks and I would be returning on 22 March. Lots of 11s/22s ~ the numerology certainly resonated; 11 being potential for growth and 22 representing the ability to turn dreams into reality. I have come to realise, during my trip, that my leaving date is just after the Spring Equinox on the 20th March, key astrological events including the transition into the new "chinese year"; the shedding of the snake into the Fire Horse.

I was guided to fly to San Francisco for a few days, a week in Hawaii ~ I chose Kauai ~ where I revisited parts of Mu, the lost continent pertinent to my past lives as a Lemurian. My trip this time until 9 February 2026, 9 being the number for completion, has essentially incorporated transmuting one fear after another. From getting on the plane ~ I had not historically had a fear of flying ~ Kauai felt like a massive milestone flying over the Pacific Ocean to small islands and camping a few metres from the sea. So much water around me offering the processing of irrational fears; a releasing of emotions through being at one with the elements. I have written another blog on my trip to Kauai. I returned to San Francisco one week later. I felt relief at knowing my San Francisco environment a bit better, returning to the same hostel my confidence started to return.

I spent one week in San Francisco. I was then ready to head back up to Mount Shasta. I went via Sacramento on the famous Greyhound bus, sat next to a lovely guy called David and we chatted all the way. In Sacramento I met up with my lovely friend Kerry I had met in Shasta 10 years ago. Having too much luggage on my return to the UK in December 2015, she kindly took 1 stone and 2 crystals to look after; the one crystal, a Blue Apatite Egg came to represent a key Remembrance of my Soul and the reason for this blog.

My trip was on a budget. I had a few unexpected costs and my money felt like it was starting to "slip away". I had booked one week at Base Camp; a more expensive week in a tiny cabin (number 9 for completion!), which I very much looked forward to, as I had been hostelling since my arrival and it was super lovely to be in my own space again. I had slept in San Francisco aiport the night before Hawaii and the night I arrived back, as both flights were unsocial hours and I decided to save a bit of money. It was uncomfortable, in some ways, and kind of interesting in another. Basecamp, Mount Shasta is a beautiful apartment complex with a courtyard. I really loved it. I could do my laundry, yay! I could reasonably easily walk into town and gaze at the mountain on my walks. I was delighted to find that I was living 367 feet away from the Gateway Peace Garden in Mount Shasta; a truly beautiful expanse of land open from Sunrise to Sunset with many aspects; a Labyrinth at its Centre with a statue of Mother Mary at the very Centre within view on a bright day of the glorious Mount Shasta.

The Gateway Peace Garden and particularly the Labyrinth, at its Centre, became a daily ritual during my week at Base Camp. The Labyrinth is such a great Teacher, not only does it invite you to slow down through walking consciously, it weaves Wisdom into your steps. You are invited to set your intention from the Heart at the entrance and then walk through guided separated walkways to the Centre. I have walked a number of Labyrinths over the last 15 years or so. What I found particularly poignant this time round is how I felt like I was getting closer to the Centre ~ what we may regard as our destination point, only to be led back out further away from the Centre, our desired outcome. And this is how Consciousness works, in my experience, there are layers upon layers of a specific thread of Consciousness ~ One that we feel we may have somewhat mastered, only to be pushed back out towards the outer edge of the Labyrinth ~ to revisit evolving awareness around an aspect of Consciousness. Damn! We might say. I thought I had the gist of that aspect of life! The good news is that as we keep walking, fully Accepting where we are with each step, we inevitably reach the Centre; a place where everything Returns to Love; where Balance and Harmony are Restored. We are invited on our return out of the Labyrinth to observe what may have come to Light on our inward journey, or otherwise; to reflect upon it; much like we do at the end of a lifetime. A "review", if you like.

I take a moment now to revisit the 3 crystals Kerry looked after for 10 years between my first visit to Mount Shasta in 2015 and my return in 2026. I cannot even remember giving them to Kerry or what we arranged. I felt so much Gratitude when she arrived at the Sacramento Mansion Hostel with 1 rock and 2 crystals beautifully wrapped in a cloth. The rock immediately spoke to me; Kerry and I had both noticed a heart within the rock; it has yet to reveal its message. The Dravite, a brown tourmaline is a "traveler's stone" and so this was very apt for my current circumstances, and its qualities spoke to me at many levels. The second crystal a Blue Apatite Egg was kindly identified by Soul Connections, a crystal shop in Mount Shasta. When I looked up the meaning of the blue apatite egg; it said "rebirth, intense mental clarity, and deep spiritual guidance, often serving as a tool to connect with higher wisdom and activate the Throat and Third Eye Chakras. Known as a "Guidance Stone," it fosters communication, boosts motivation, aids in manifestation, and helps release emotional eating patterns". This description spoke to me, at every level on this part of my Journey. The light blue reminded me of Mother Mary, through whom I am reminded of the Qualities of the Higher Heart. The Gateway Peace Garden has at least 2 significant sized statutes of Mother Mary, and probably many more. One statue at the very centre of the Labyrinth.

I still wasn't sure about keeping the Blue Apatite egg. There has definitely been something about luggage and emotional baggage on this USA trip; regularly having to let a few physical possessions go so that I was carrying less around. For some reason I brought 3 books I probably didn't need, a few other crystals and I was carrying everything around, often feeling a little burdened. Releasing "things" kind of felt representative to releasing emotional baggage; all this residual fear that had been coming up on this Continent; which I had already worked out by now, was largely a remembrance of my last Lemurian lifetime and what is regarded as the "The Fall of Lemuria" where their world as they knew it came to an end.

It is not uncommon for me to have a little conflict around letting crystals go likewise, over the years, I have passed on many crystals on, often to those I barely know. Some I almost immediately regretted, and yet knew their homes were elsewhere and know there are no mistakes. Some crystals mysteriously "disappear" as I am sure many who have crystals have experienced. Some I have "lost" for them to reappear at a later date.

On the penultimate day of my stay at BaseCamp, I started to feel like I would leave the Blue Apatite Egg at the centre of the Labyrinth at the Gateway Peace Garden. I was so excited to have received an offering of somewhere to stay for the rest of my 10-week trip. Furthermore this retreat centre is called Wisdom of the Heart Centre; a retreat centre on 19 acres of land 2-3 miles outside of Mount Shasta, surrounded by an enchanted forest and as I came to experience a view of the top of Mount Shasta, through the trees. This step would be taking a fair amount of courage, as I was going out of Mount Shasta, into the Unknown; person, place and situation. Earlier in the week on the Monday, I had prayed for an accommodation fit so that I could stay at Mount Shasta and heard the words from Lord Ashtar Command "you know what you need to do, you simply need to walk the path". I knew it was for my Highest Good likewise tremendous fear was coming to the surface in the form of irrational thoughts ~ much like I had been experiencing on most of my US trip so far. What I noticed is that my irrational thought forms had been attracting and continued to attract experiences to support my irrational fears. A reminder I AM the creator of my experience.

And so, on Sunday, my last evening at Base Camp, at about 5pm I headed over to the Labyrinth. Since I arrived at Shasta the preceding Monday, it had been glorious blue skies and this was the first day with clouds and light rain. I walked over to the Gateway Peace Garden with the Blue Apatite Egg in my left hand, my receiving side as I felt open to receive it's guidance. Firstly I went to the part of the garden dedicated to St Francis of Assisi, also Pythagoras in a previous lifetime and now Master Kuthumi, although someone said recently he may have changed his name. I had bought a beautiful turquoise ribbon before my trip to go on my suitcase and recognise it on the luggage conveyor belt at the airport. Having seen many ribbons at the Gateway Peace Garden I now knew my ultimate reason for having purchased the ribbon and left it at St Francis of Assisi's part of the garden. I read the St Francis of Assisi prayer 3 times and said a prayer for one of my dreams connected to animals. I noticed the statue of a bird and it reminded of our wings to fly and so I placed my ribbon on the bird.

I headed over to the Labyrinth to reconnect with it and Mother Mary. At this point, I. had every intention of leaving the Egg at the Centre. It is such a beautiful egg, its colour and feel in my hand. I walked slowly and consciously feeling into my Heart space. I renewed my Intention to receive the Guidance of what this egg represented.

The closer I walked to the Centre; my feelings were starting to unravel. I knew that I had been letting go of the burden of carrying the weight of others for too long; nobody had asked me to carry the weight, I had chosen to take it on; and it then perhaps grew to be expected of me. Over recent years, I have become aware of humanity putting too much pressure on their physical hearts; which already does the functioning of pushing the blood around the body. It is now time for each to hand over their "burdens" to the Higher Heart. We are and we never were meant to carry these burdens for Self or others. It is time to hand over to the God Head; to ask for Mercy where needed; learn from our mistakes and start living the life we came here to live.

My physical Heart was aching, and still is, as I write this; another layer of the armour being pulled back to illuminate the higher frequency sensitivities of the Higher Heart. Armour I have been wearing for eons, for lifetimes.

As I neared towards the Centre, about two third in, I felt there was something else that wished to come through; that I was, in fact, meant to keep the egg, as She represented my Life's Calling. Through this emergent Realisation I started to get excited and pick up my pace. Racing ahead, I was happy nobody else showed up at the Labyrinth. By this point, I knew I needed to complete this cycle of the Labyrinth, to place the crystal at the Centre, receive any further guidance on the way out and go back in to retrieve the Crystal.

My steps got faster, I consciously slowed down. Yes that is it! I knew I need to come back to Mount Shasta; I hadn't known 100% why and it started to fall into place. My Soul's calling to further Anchor the Higher Heart within myself and onto the Earth Plane.

I have always resonated with Mother Mary, more so than Mary Magdalene so far, although I had wonderful experiences with Mary Magdalene in Glastonbury before I left the UK. I suddenly realised both my Grandmothers had Mary as their middle names. I have known for a while that the new Golden Age is calling in leaders with a gentle strength. Yes "bold" I AM being told, likewise with humility, gentleness and kindness. I have been living this way most of my life; time after time over-ridden by characters needing to dominate through their own insecurities. I now limit those people in my life; calling in those who have a resonant field.

I got to the Centre and left the egg; knowing that we would be reunited again soon. I was pleased that she would be with Mother Mary for some time as I headed back out of the labyrinth. She looked so beautiful at the feet of Mother Mary. I had a fleeting thought, I hope someone doesn't think I am stealing the egg when I come back in likewise I knew I needed to leave the egg at the Centre and return to collect the egg on a second journey of the Labyrinth.

I walked back out fairly quickly; excitement ensuing being conscious to slow down my steps and journey. I felt my Heart at the clarity and possibilities. I felt Gratitude.

I completed the first journey and fairly quickly stood at the entrance setting my Intention to go back into the Labyrinth to receive any further guidance I needed. I noticed for the second journey in, I had unconsciously moved the egg to my right hand. The right side is about being more outwardly, taking action and moving forward.

I noticed I felt more confident; more empowered, clear and Purposeful. I had noticed this shift soon after receiving more clarity of the meaning and destination of the egg. I felt Balanced and Aligned.

I continued my walk with deepening Gratitude in my Heart. The soles of my boots a bit damp because of the rain. I saw a broken ring ~ what does that mean? I had received much guidance over recent years from the Lord of the Rings trilogy, in getting the ring into it's rightful owners' hands. It felt this journey had been about getting the Egg into the rightful person's hands; and I now knew this would be me. The broken part of the ring initially feels like I had broken through this insight, although I am still somewhat unpacking its meaning, as I write this. At one point, I had contemplated leaving the Egg overnight on the Sunday, likewise I had received clarity on the Labyrinth's guidance that I no longer felt this to be necessary.

The second walk felt good; conscious, Aligned; my Heart hurt a little with the de-armouring.

I headed back out of the Gateway Peace Garden towards my cabin at Base Camp, honouring the statue of Mother Mary close to the entrance. Already in Gratitude, I couldn't believe that the Dove's crystal, at the very entrance, had turned a turquoise blue. Each day of my visit the dove's crystal had reflected a different colour and there was no mistake it was reflecting the turquoise colour of Mother Mary and the Higher Heart. Furthermore, this would be my message as I go back out into the world.

As I write this back at the cabin, my physical heart is still hurting quite a bit and so I will sit with it further. I call it de-Armouring. Living in a world that has tried to make me hard, I AM now coming back into my Sovereignty; living from a place of self-love and now being harmonious and centered enough to keep my heart open, even in the face of adversity.

When I booked Base Camp I knew it had a Gift to share. The earlier part of the week I was relaxed in my new-found freedom; space for myself, exploring town. By the time I got to mid-week I was feeling the Call to go more inward and reconnect more fully with the Gateway Peace Garden and this majestic sacred Mountain, which would undoubtedly be reflecting my inner goings-on. I was astounded and excited at the connections I had felt during my stay. A good reminder during the week, that our outer is always reflecting our inner, observing myself of still having a tendency to look outside for answers and a reminder to go within.

As my lovely Mount Shasta friend Noorah has reminded me in the last few days, when we live from the Oneness there is no need to seek answers on the outer. This is true. And I currently navigate between the two; a bit like the infinity symbol, historically focusing a little too much on the outer, possibly due to my Moon in Gemini; a quality that loves to analyse.

As I said "goodbye" to the Mother Mary statue on my way out of the Peace Garden, I looked into her eyes, her Beingness and could feel her Qualities; Love, Compassion, Patience. It felt like she was looking back at me, as I looked at her; a mirror, of course. And so, I guess my journey with the Blue Apatite egg is only just beginning.

For tonight, the Blue Apatite Egg sits beside my other crystals on my temporary Altar; alongside my Lemurian Starseed Crystal, my Dravite Tourmaline, my Selenite and other crystals and deities. I take a few more deep breaths; it is now time to integrate, to Be, the Awareness has come to the surface to merge with my Beingness.

For me, a key Signature Note of the Turquoise colour, the Higher Heart, is to Trust in the Unknowing. There is no doubt that my renewed Clarity of Purpose is dissolving the fear. Awakening to your Purpose ignites an Inner Fire that burns down all that it doesn't represent. And the Labyrinth assists in slowing everything done, offering its Wisdom; the invitation to more fully Anchor and disseminate the Wisdom of the Higher Heart. How apt that my new Home for the next six weeks is a Retreat Centre close to Mount Shasta called "Wisdom of The Heart Centre" I will undoubtedly be sharing more on my journey soon; 19 acres of enchanted forest and experiences to support the Journeyer's Awakening to who they Truly are.

The Beautiful Labyrinth at the Gateway Peace Garden, Mount Shasta

Mother Mary Statue with the Blue Apatite Egg at the Centre of the Labyrinth

St. Francis of Assisi Prayer at the Gateway Peace Garden

The Dove at the Entrance of the Gateway Peace Garden ~ the crystal reflecting Light Blue

The front Garden at the Wisdom of The Heart Centre ~ my Home close to Mount Shasta for 5 and a half weeks